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let's chase the summer and forget the world.

hahah more photos in time to come. have to wait for that lazy bum bunny to upload her photos into shutterfly. hmm. yeah so i got through the last day of school today. i knw i said this like a dozen times and it probably sounds stupid cos you read it on every other blog you go to. but yeah haha for me i guess the year just speeded by! yeah haha speeded by, with school work, dance trainings, the killers SIAs then yeah came exams and now graduated as a batch of 2006. nanyang taught me many things, and the majestic school building remains my eye candy (out of point but yeah) since primary school. many things have changed though, like how i do not love the ny hongzi like how i did four years ago. the many teachers who freaked me half to death now turn our dear friends.(: how we found within ourselves much more confidence and elements of our own character. school closure at hall today. bidding farewell to mdm mak, a familiar figure in our school in these four years. as we sang the school song and screamed the school cheer, i realised that im actually doing them for the last time. haha it sounds lame but tears kinda welled up. what happened to all those monday mornings when only the recording is heard when we need to sing the school song? what about those times when councillors took the stage and tried the very best to get us to cheer. how about those times during sports meets and nationals tournaments when everyone cheered on willingly to encourage their fellow schoolmates. throughout these four years, i have not been the most enthusiatic student. admittingly, i have indeed rolled my eyes too many a times when teachers got up the podium to talk. i have not been the most obedient, never the most active. but thats what school life is all about i guess? (:

i guess the reality of us leaving hasnt really hit me just yet. we always knw the most important thing is to treasure, but sometimes i really do wonder how? hmm.

thankyou nanyang. it is you who gave me some of the most precious friendships which i will deeply cherish. it is you who gave me the chance and oppportunity to learn, to discover. it is you who blessed me with the beautiful people in the modern dance troupe. it is you who taught me how to stand up from failures, and it is you who made me realise that no matter what happens, there will always be people who truly care. people who want us to make our mark in life. of course, besides love there were disappointments failures setbacks and tears, but we were taught how to live with it and make it better. with our strong beliefs, we all made it through today, proud to stand as nanyang girls.

Somewhere after midnight
In my wildest fantasy
Somewhere just beyond my reach
There’s someone reaching back for me

Racing on the thunder and rising with the heat
It’s gonna take a superman to sweep me off my feet

I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'till the end of the night
He's gotta be strong
And he's gotta be fast
And he's gotta be fresh from the fight


jiayi told me to update.but i dontknw what to say haha it's just those same old things.and my life is super boring.

oh yeah.i GRADUATED! :D

one more week to school and we're officially out.thats how our 4 years in nanyang gotta end i guess.i was just thinking maybe i should start paying attention in chinese lesson tmr since it's like our last few lessons in nanyang.i have this feeling that lessons over at the other side are going to be very different. ): sigh.cest' la vie.is that what they call it?yeah that's life i guess.

thanks for the beautiful modern dance page on the graduation magazine <3 dear dancers,your seniors are going to miss you too.just so you knw.(:

hmm now a part of nanyang graduating batch 06.

sorry i cant be perfect;

I've been watching your world from afar
I've been trying to be where you are
and I've been secretly falling apart
I see
To me you're strange and you're beautiful
You'd be so perfect with me but you just
can't see. You turn every head but you don't
see me.

I'll put a spell on you
you fall asleep
when I put a spell on you
and when I wake you I'll be the first thing you see,
and you'll realise that you love me


dance at MAD today!it went on very fast the whole thing was very energetic and it was really tiring but it was really worth it! :D it's different from nanyang but i guess the change cant be bad.it was really like wow need so much energy and everything.my legs are suffering from serious muscle cramps nw.managed to walk home man hahah and nw they are still hurting.it's so serious hahah like i almost fell just nw cos my legs cant support me anymore(: but the fact that i can still smile is cos the practice was really very fun :D it was like super fun :D though VERY tiring.we had two breaks in the course of 3 hours i totally gulped dwn all the water.everything went on straight after one move and everything.it was cool(: cool and every step was breath-taking :D it feels good to be able to dance again toooo!i wonder if i can ever match up to their standard though.ugh i want to dance and everything is worth it if i can make it to MAD,muscle cramps or not. (:

wonder how did things do at nanyang modern dance today while we were over at the other side.i miss the juniors and the nanyang dance studio! <3

i seriously wonder how am i going to walk tmr. :D nw it's the legs and arms.hope the back dont start aching too.i better not fall when getting up the stage to receive graduation certificate tmr man.hahah tmr is graduation ceremony!

bytheway.chinese lessons are totally horrible.i cant stand them.yay luckily tmr school ends earlier at 1230.eunice's house! :D oh and today like no one in the class actually finished the compo/compres we were supposed to and so many people were sleeping while the rest were talking.houlaoshi totally gave up on us and left the class.hahah.houlaoshi is nice la.too nice in fact,but total 403 spirit man(:

okay i need five mins to walk to my bed.okay thats an exaggeration but yeah.it felt like it.anw i think MAD practices are good.they can help me lose weight OH YEAHH(:

you took my breath away;

How could that beautiful women with you
Be the same freckle face kid that I knew
The one that I read all those fairy tales to
And tucked into bed all those nights
And I knew the first time I saw you with her
It was only a matter of time

But I loved her first and I held her first
And a place in my heart will always be hers
From the first breath she breathed
When she first smiled at me
I knew the love of a father runs deep
And I prayed that she'd find you someday
But its still hard to give her away
I loved her first


boring boring and boring seems to be the only word to describe life nowadays.there is absolutely nothing to do.there is nothing to do at school.nothing to do in the house.we've gone out and all but nw even going out seem so boring.in the end everyone will just end up in mos burger staring at each other.

monday: popped in at studio for one hour.saw the juniors learning the new dance.it's pretty cool! (: haha the next day i heard that the audition was really different and it was kinda scary.haha go nymd.then after that went back to 403 with jiayuan helen and meisiew to accompany poor wanteng and yueyang who were surfing the net in school cos they are bored stiff too.went esso got a tuna pufff and then went coro got contact lens solution and then yeah.back to hc busstop hmm wanteng jiayuan yueyang waited for 154 then yeah back to the house.

tuesday: got back math and was kinda screwed.just hope i hadnt let down mrs see.after school had cip meeting then went town.kinda had a one-quarter 403 class gathering hahah went around but there's nothing much we can do in nanyang uniform.just went through the shops browsed through the clothes but not very interested perhaps cos we were in school u with a bag and stuff kinda troublesome.yeah then we sat dwn at mos burger and stared at each other.

today: had a date with chit actually but thought there was mad practice which ended up on thursday (thanks to blur sharon) stoned around in school for quite some time with wanteng bunny yijing and anyi hahah then decided on going sac which was like closed then went venezia at sixth ave.that place is pretty cool!saw dance senior there hmm it was good to see that she still recognised me after like 2 years (: so i was happy.hahah then saw xuee who was to study in venezia with her friend.hmm had this brownie with gelato i like hazelnut hahah then talked stufff then it was boring.we had nothing to do and so much time to spare.went cold storage which is really cool!saw alot of cool stuff hahah and nice food.ate so much we felt so guilty ugh.said bye to xuee then walked back to school.yijing wanteng went back.left bunny with me hahah we continued walking then talked a few mins to houlaoshi at the busstop then went back class hahah surfed some net then went back.we really have alot of time to spare,considering we can do so many things in just one afternoon.time used to pass really fast.used to.anyway,venezia is a really nice place.we will be back(: ohh xuee.your friend is not weird la! :D

tomorrow: going to take a look at mad (music and dance) practice at hwachong.it'll be a dream come true if i can actually get in(:

friday: school with thousands of higher chinese lessons which they just stuffed into our timetable cos they knw theres nothing for us to do.then highlight of the day!: going to eunice's house to play poool!hahah we are like novices so noob but nevermind AT LEAST THERE'S SOMETHING TO DO.then have to get back to school by 530pm for sec4 graduation ceremony.im graduating,hmm.

saturday: someone's birthday! ;D hahah wonder if we're going to celebrate by shopping with birthday girl again.

sunday: DUNNO.

the above pretty much sums up my week.DEAD BORING.my results are kinda screwed.i realised im not really exam smart i cant do exams.like ca marks and sia are alright then here comes sa and woo everything gets pulled dwn.rahh.anyway im broke so shopping now can only be confined to the dear windows.hmm and i need to buy bus pass.and hmm i need to find a job.speaking of finding a job,that day with bunny at delifrance was damn funny.okay thats another long story.

bunny brought camera today.photos!took alot of lame stuff though.anw our class has this really weird seating arrangement nw.hahah it's only chinese and everyone pretty much ignores him anw.he's so poor thing aiyuh but theres nothing i can do.hahah houlaoshi was damn funny today cos we were like playing "monkey" with volleyball then he was walking to our class for lessons then we told him to play with us he became the monkey then he said not fair cos we threw the ball damn high so we played monkey- the soccer way.hahah then kicked for a few seconds 402 chinese teacher came out houlaoshi was damn scared HAHAHAH then all of us went back class for lesson.hahahah.

sorry i've gotten so bored im nw blogging about my life.rahh.talking to smarterchild doesnt really help with the boredom.but anyway.MUST DO WELL FOR HIGHER CHINESE O LEVELS MUST MUST MUST.

okay goodnight people.tag me so i can reply cos im damn bored.and people please update your blogs there's nothing to do online nowadays.

people who read till here,you must be dying of boredom like me.well im glad this took up part of your time(: bytheway my grammar for this post kinda suck real bad so,sorry(: -oh!publicity.

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too strong for too long;

I was folding up your letters
Unpacking winter clothes
Searching for my hat
I thought I left it by the door
So I tore around the room
Like a bird without a head
I saw your picture waving back at me
From underneath the bed
From a long, long time ago

When all I had
Was a hat full of stars
The one I'll always treasure
The one that you wore
You loved the look
But you never looked inside
You would have seen us there
You could've seen far
You should've seen the magic
In my hat full of stars

I'm trying to live in the present
But I keep tripping on the past
Finding out reality, well clarity
Comes in dribs and drabs
No we never had the time
For everything we had
So it felt like we had nothing
That's what makes this hat so sad
It was a long, long time ago

all of a sudden i had this realisation that everything is changing with us moving on to JC.nygh is going to have a chance of principal with our dear mdm mak going off to hongkong.she is one funky principal i guess.she's understanding and all.and she was the one who changed and improved nanyang.like before her every nanyang girl was to have short hair?and no handphones allowed in school.i guess we'll always thank her for all the changes.(: and nymd will always remember her for her unwavering support,trust,faith and belief in our beautiful dance troupe.i hope future nanyang girls will have a good school life under the new principal.well.hahah yeah everyone moves on.heard that mrs see is also quitting or something to become a housewife to take care of her son.ahh.from monday onwards i wont get to see yunning xueen and joanne in school anymore.it's like what the hell.and things at dance seem to be really different too.everything is changing changing changing.i dontwant to leave nanyang but maybe it's actually a good thing for us to leave at this time.along with everybody else.that way we would not have to stay on to try to adapt to new stuff.luck to chit siyu and the sec 3s this year.you guys will be good seniors i knw! (:


ok.i kinda expected this.but still sometimes when you expect something doesnt mean it doesnt happen.life after exams are drop dead boring.boring. although going out and shopping does help alot.(: but still my grandma sucks and i cant have fun around her.ah.i love my friends and dancemates really (: they brighten up my life :D bugis and town on thursday was fun.town yesterday with wanteng yueyang and bunny was fun too.(: i thank god for all of them.

i want to go and work.i cant survive the holidays of daily doses of grandma torture.

i really wonder how come things at school can change so much in a matter of days and things at home have remained the same for four entire long years.when am i going to move house.

with a sense of poise and rationality;

(PAUL)
It's a lonely ride on a midnight train
I'm counting down the days till I'm home again

(BEN)
How can i sing when my words says im drown
How can i smile with a tear in my eye
Summer's so lost it'a raining in June
That's how it feels when I'm missing you.
Ohhh yeahhh.. hey baby ooh oooh

(MARK)
Now time ain't healing
Another week gone by
Girl, It feels like a year
Hmmm...
I've been calling, every day and night
How i wish you were here
Ohh yeah

hwachong today was rather scary.the way of life.the way they do things.actually i guess it's quite good cos the people are involved and active and passionate but still it kinda scares me.i dontknw what.everything is different.and this has nothing got to do with the gender ratio.i just dontknw whats so scary.yeah.the way of life i guess.i dont like to be out of my comfort zone.imagine new classes new people new style new everything.it's just tough.and all of a sudden things like portfolios and whatever stufff nw make a hell lot of difference.and nw you worry about how you can gain an edge over your own peers so to get this scholarship get into that programme or whatever.it's this sense of competitiveness which i dont really welcome.but i guess thats the way the world works.no one cares anymore.no one waits for you like the way they used to do.look around you and things scream "welcome to the real world".

anyway one great part about today was hwachong music and dance.hope i can make it in there.

there are only 10 days of school left for the year.

when im missing you;

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't


i thought that this was pretty cool.
last night i look at the stars,matching each with a reason why i love you.i was doing great,but i ran out of stars.

life sucks.

baby take me on a journey;

Three little birds, sat on my window.
And they told me I don't need to worry.
Summer came like cinnamon
So sweet,
Little girls double-dutch on the concrete.

Maybe sometimes, we got it wrong, but it's alright
And nothing seems to change, and it all will stay the same.
Oh, don't you hesitate.

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.


it's weird.but it's only like the second day after exams ended on monday.then now.i've got nothing to do.i practically stoned today through.ok i feel like such a pig.i woke up.ate breakfast which was like two slices of cheesy cakes.then i walked around.got nothing to do so i went to lie on the bed and yeah guess what i fell asleep.hahah then after that i woke up to help my mother with the clothes.then yeah i went back to sleep.then i woke up sat around.my grandma came back oh man i cant sleep anymore then after lunch sat around with her then my grandma said wah very tired leh i said yah lor then we went to sleep.i slept from one till four!was so scared cos i thot she will like scold me kill me WOW SHE DIDNT.it was practically a miracle.(: hahah then i stayed awake till nw.i tried to read the bks i borrowed from the library.but somehow.very boring.dont think im weird but i have this urge to hit the books.i've learned quite alot throughout this exam period and although its irritating how we gotta memorise everything and stuff i must say i've gained quite alot haha and stuff can be rather interesting sometimes.and oh,i like having intellectual conversations(:

i want to go out!but my grandma is not happy ): i want to go out with my mother whee.(: haven gone out with her for so so long.i hate being cheated. oh and im looking forward to school on friday.must treasure these last few weeks.going to school in nanyang uniform.(:

you gotta find yourself somewhere,somehow;

Even a lover makes a mistake sometimes
Like any other
Fall out and lose his mind
And I'm sorry for the things I did
For your teardrops over words I said
Can you forgive me and open
your heart once again, oh yeah

It's true
I mean it
From the bottom of my heart
Yeah, it's true
Without you I would fall apart


(: exams are over.gone.wow.so fast.imagine one week ago we just finished our language arts and yeah,chem the next day.haha but surprisingly im not as happy or elated as i thought i would feel.mhmm.i dontknw why.i guess cos i probably like flunked all my papers.i always must do something stupid for each paper youknw.it's damn frustrating.chem i saw exothermic as endothermic.bio i saw option C as D.physics i just saw this stupid ray and mixed it up with the other and thought it was parallel.the thing is i knw how to do all these.just so stupid man i nearly killed myself,especially after the bio one.rah.actually i feel that i haven really finished studying and nw its all gone but i still want to like read more and stuff.wow since when did i become so hardworking(:

anyway watched nc16 youmeanddupree on friday after physics (i felt so relieved after physics like its my most hated subject and its finally over but yeah i flunked it too) haha its quite entertaining la but what nc16 sexual humour there werent much inside anyway but jiayuan was not supposed to watch yet she got in hahaha.then watched scoop today which was so so so lame oh my goodness.there were alot of laughter but most of the time we were laughing nt cos its funny but its so stupid and like what the hell like this also can,that kinda laughter.eleven 403 people on the bus and in the theatre today wow we were so noisy.anyway town was practically flooded with nanyang girls and nanyang girls and nanyang girls.and some cj people i guess they finished their exams too.haha then after movie and walking around yeah went library haha got some books which im going to read(: anyway for scoop right that hugh guy whatever his name is is some serial killer hahah halfway the movie i was like telling anyi that but she didnt believe and told me nope cos he's so goodlooking and handsome he cant be some serial killer haha damn amusing(:

anyway.i want to go shoppping!just that i have like no money.and im damn fat.rah.anyway i kinda desperately need clothes.oh and bye kap(: btw i made an achievement i made a friend in kap.the woman who clears tables heheh shes quite young haha and she can like recognise us and we can recognise her so we said hi(: so cool right.anw claps i haven been online for one week and one day wow i feel so accomplished.haha but im not that determined i tried getting online but something went wrong with the com for the entire week till today it was so frustrating.then guess what man.my sister unplugged the connection in the living room.i stood there for so long pulling wires and stuff trying to find out whats wrong.then when i found out wow i wanted to kill her.

okay people who finished or are finishing their eoys yeah enjoy life.enjoy more for my sake alright.good nights and sweet dreams. <3

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